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    Post by iKevinly on August 4th 2011, 9:13 pm

    "When you try your best, but you don't succeed
    When you get what you want, but not what you need
    When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
    Stuck in reverse

    And the tears come streaming down your face
    When you lose something you can't replace
    When you love someone, but it goes to waste
    Could it be worse?

    And high up above or down below
    When you're too in love to let it go
    But if you never try you'll never know
    Just what you're worth.

    Tears stream down on your face
    When you lose something you cannot replace
    Tears stream down on your face
    And I..."

    Coldplay's "Fix You."
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    I don't know anymore. I'm trying my best to follow the lines of, "When you're too in love to let it go / But if you never try you'll never know / Just what you're worth."

    I'm trying, I'm trying so hard to follow those golden lines.
    But they're not working.

    I'm so confused on what I'm worth.
    And yesterday, this song just blew up in my face.

    "Tears stream down you're face.
    When you lose something you can't replace."

    And. .
    That's me.
    This thread isn't going anywhere, I know. It's full of vague holes everywhere but. .

    Time sucks.
    Since I know that the only cure from my pain at this moment is time.
    To let my memory eventually forget.
    And Coldplay's helping me, at least, by revealing to me that there is no real easy way to get out of this hole I'm in.
    Tears are gonna stream,
    Just gotta wait for time.
    -


    I guess to make this thread somewhat meaningful. .
    Self-Esteem leads into the line, "Knowing just what you're worth."
    How, do you guys think, one can gain this golden thing called Self-Esteem?
    To be able to ditch a person at the slightest mistake. .
    To be able to say, "I don't mind being by myself. I can have fun without anyone else."

    . .
    :( Talk to me.


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    Post by Sophie on August 4th 2011, 10:45 pm

    I don't really understand what's going on, so perhaps I shouldn't be going 100% deep and ranty over this.

    But I've got to make a few points:

    There's nothing wrong with being fine alone.
    I think being able to accept that fact is what makes someone strong. When we grow up, the world won't be kind. If we can't deal with being alone, then the world will just eat us. Eat us whole. Food. c:

    Also, self-esteem is what you make it to be.
    If you think you suck, then you suck.
    If you think your awesome level is over 9000, then I suppose that would be exactly what your awesome level is.
    I can't tell you how to find it--that's up to you.
    (However, if anyone else has a method, please tell. I wanna know too. D:)

    Sometimes, stuff happens, and being able to shrug it off is simply another survival skill that allows us to live happier lives.
    When stuff happens that you can't shrug off... well, there's nothing else left to do then wait for it to dissipate on its own, no?
    Time does suck. But the human mind is resilient enough to heal most anything with its help. You've just got to wait it out.

    Call me a cynic, but I don't believe in love this early.
    Is it really possible to be 100% sure that you're in love when you don't really know what love is?
    Of course, there are those instances where high school love leads to forever and after...
    Whatever you feel is best, I guess.

    However! I'm not you.
    Therefore, I couldn't possibly give you any better advice then you would be able to give yourself.
    So, just do what you believe.
    And smile. Ten years down in the road, this will mean nothing. :)


    (Pssst, would you mind if I moved this to the problems forum? I think it would find a better home there. Yay! )


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    Post by Ketchup Girl on August 4th 2011, 11:30 pm

    (Oooh, a meaningful forum! Must post!)

    *Applauds Sophie's post*

    Sophie summed it up wonderfully, I have little to add.

    I will say, though, that the way I find self-esteem (self esteem, meaning being confident and not swayed too much by other people) is somewhat weird and unusual. Mostly, I list all the ways that my life could be way worse (because despite some days, I do not feel that my life is bad, per se) and think to myself, "Hey, if it could be worse, then why am I so unconfident and angry at myself? I SHOULD BE FRIGGIN' HAPPIER because even though according to the media I should have gotten two abortions and a close relative murdered by now, my life does not suck." Then I feel way better.

    Yes, it makes no sense. But it works.

    Also, while it's kind of cruel, it also does wonders for self-esteem to look down on people. For example, go to the comment section on any given Youtube video and bask in your supreme intelligence. Or read a tween zine and think, "Hey, I don't give a crap about this stuff! That's more than can be said for some people!"

    Yeah... I have weird self-esteem boosting methods.
    Sorry for my bad advice, feel better soon.
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    Post by iKevinly on August 5th 2011, 12:05 am

    Hmm, interesting perspective about love, Sophie.
    And that's the thing, I thought that too.
    ESPECIALLY in high school.
    I mean, hell, chances are you won't go to the same college or even have the feelings that far into college anymore.

    Yet, I stopped thinking that eventually.
    I would fix his whole house,
    I would die,
    I would do ANYTHING for youknowwho, Sophie.
    Anything.
    And, I even felt happy when I was helping clean his room because I was doing something for him.
    That's the thing.
    I feel as if, for most people, love is something that they take not seriously.
    Sadly,
    I'm Beyonce in her song "If I were a Boy."

    I understand a lot more and know that. . I would never lead someone on or ruin someone by pretending I love them.
    That's the thing, I take myself seriously and I know that right now, it's love.
    I'm not like anyone else when it comes to it,
    I was a cynic too but in a way. . .
    I grew up fast.
    And that's my excuse. :x

    ~~

    I know what you mean Monika and I know that this is gonna sound really sad but. .
    I honestly, when I tried that method, I just had to stop.
    I was crying all over the place because as I thought about things like, Children in Africa for example.
    I just noticed. .
    I wouldn't mind.
    I honestly wouldn't mind giving this all up for that life-- a life in which there's a meaning for life and you want to survive.
    . . :(


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    Post by Sophie on August 5th 2011, 1:05 am

    STOP

    Look at this monkey!
    Yo yo!

    Now, no scary talk about life and stuff!

    Monika, I use your methods a-alot.
    It feels better knowing that at least I've a better life then those fangirls on youtube. Hard to explain...


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    Post by iKevinly on August 5th 2011, 1:29 am

    LMAO.

    "I LOVE YOU JUSTIN BIEBER!"
    Me: . . . Yep, thank god I'm me.

    Dx


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    Post by Ryan on August 5th 2011, 1:45 pm

    Justin Beiber is sexy 8)
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    Post by iKevinly on August 5th 2011, 1:48 pm

    *GASP* JUSTIN BIEBER FAN :P
    Ahahah :D I know that Monika (or Ketchup Girl) hates Justin Bieber :P So be careful, Ryan!


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    Post by Ryan on August 5th 2011, 1:53 pm

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    Post by Ketchup Girl on August 5th 2011, 3:36 pm

    *Enters, carrying shotgun*

    WHAT? A JUSTINE BIEBER FAN ON THIS FORUM?! WHERE?!

    *Sniffs the air*

    *Looks up, sees Ryan's post*

    Ah, well, you seem sane enough. Fandom forgiven.

    More importantly, WHY THE HELL ARE WE DISCUSSING TEEN POP STARS? Let's get back to deep and meaningful stuff! Next thing you know we'll be discussing Twilight or something! So, Kevin, y u no write chapter 7 yet?
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    Post by Sophie on August 5th 2011, 8:18 pm

    Yeah, Kevin. Y U NO CHAPTER 7?

    (Hey, I'm a Belieber. Oh Noes. )


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    Post by iKevinly on August 5th 2011, 8:31 pm

    Wait a sec, that's weird.
    I wrote a really lengthy reply, but it never got sent through! DX

    IN BULLET POINTS SINCE MY FINGERS ARE TIRED:

    I made VOID: ZERO specifically because I noticed something.
    I love writing,
    I'm decent at it. .
    But what makes me enjoy it more is when the paper is clean.
    By that, I mean.
    I write about online games,
    I write about VOID: ZERO because those two things all have a clean slate.
    With One More Time, I must follow the rules of how our world works.

    Whether that be people,
    Whether that be cars,
    Whether that be flames and trains.

    I have to really think about the world itself--and that sets me off a bit.
    For online games, I know what happens when someone dies~
    I know what happens when someone is sad.
    I know how the characters feel, how the world turns, and everything.

    VOID: Zero should help me with that a bit. Writing on a clean slate~

    WHAT I MEAN BY THIS IS:
    Chapter 7 is facing some issues with reality.
    Period. :)

    You'll see what I mean by that perhaps soon~
    When Chapter 7 does come up. :)
    OTHER THAN THAT,
    LETS HOPE THIS POST GOES THROUGH
    AND <3


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